Universe Unraveling

I'm an emotional human. Constantly, I fight the battle between emotion and focused calm. My poetry is indicative of that dichotomy. Like many other humans I am complexed and I find it hard to accurately describe who I am and what I am.

I released "Universe Unraveling" last Thursday, July 7th, and made it known publicly (Facebook and Twitter) on July 8th. It took me three years from "Someone Sinister" to this work. A work that consumed so much of my life force that physically and mentally I am drained and I need a period of recuperation, to rethink my next creative endeavor.

This release was quintessentially cathartic (how the word was meant to be used). I labored over it day and night, I had terrible nightmares that punished me for its incompletion. Anxiety consumed and debilitated me. Days and nights I had scheduled to write and/or edit I spent laying on the floor of my office scared of how the universe would judge my work...  I realize the hubris in that.

Today is July 12th and I still haven't sold one copy of "Universe Unraveling" (which is attempting to engage the hyper emotional side of me). What pisses me off is my own anxiety. I actually labored over something with the belief that someone would read it and judge it. It never occurred to me that no one would read it. Creativity is innate within me and for way too many fleeting moments I actually cared what people would think about my work.

Do not misunderstand me. Nothing I have ever written has been influenced by what others may think about its beauty or repugnance. My mind thinks how it thinks and the rest of my body is just the curator and the cultivator. My mind did my body a great disservice allowing for hubris, anxiety, and doubt to derail (however briefly) my work.

Advertising is a very important part of business and I'm still learning to engage in viable marketing practices and principles but this always vaunted support system tends to always entrap me. I have ten or so friends who are purchasing copies of my "Universe Unraveling" (some are buying two copies) so I have a strong support system. I just always think it's larger than it is and that's my mistake.

I spent three years working on "Universe Unraveling." At one point it was very plausible that it would have never been completed but it's here and I have never been more proud of something I have created (My son Nathaniel notwithstanding).

It will be available on my site as soon as I get the physical inventory but as of now it is available here:

Universe Unraveling