Life Line
From doing practically nothing for two years to doing both school and work full-time is an interesting transition. Well, it sucks! I can't do shit! EVER!! It's okay though, life is about sacrifice and sacrifice i must do to get to where i want to go. I'm still not quite clear on where that is, but I do know one thing; I want to be free!
School is going well. I figured out that not being in school for two years after 13 years of consecutive scholastic exploring really does something to the information you obtained in those 13 years. I forgot just about every-fucking-thing I learned. I feel like a retard in class. I can't believe how slow I am. I'm not conventionally wise. I'm not wise at all, I know a plethera of information about certain topics, like being black. Math and English not so much. I know nothing. I can't even put a coherrent sentence together (as you must notice as you're reading this.) My spelling and grammar is deplorable, but I'm back in school, somewhere I really need to be. I need to get more educated on this system. I have to know how to play the game, so (with your help) we can change the rules and level the playing field.
I hope work doesn't get in the way of my school work. I'm so tired when I get home from work at 5:00 am just to wake up and get to class by 9:35 am on Tuesdays and Thursdays and 11:10 am on Mondays and Wednesdays. I'm not complaining. I love my life right now, everything is going as planned and I finally feel like I'm on my way to accomplishing something in life. I don't know what yet but it's going to be something positive and beneficial to mankind. Something beneficial to my people. Hopefully I can be the alarm clock that awakes my people from their sleeps and be that spark that ignites a better way of life for us here in this hemisphere. We have to want to change before we can change and I'm not quite sure we want to do that. We seem content with the state of affairs in our community and globally.
I'm at work right now and my job is pretty laid back. I just get to listen to my music and work all day. That makes my day I have to listen to music when I'm doing something most people would perceive as work, like cleaning. It makes the task go by quicker and it infuses my soul with the energy I need to complete my work. "Gimme some of that good ol' soul music or don't give me nothing at all," as the great Dramatics told us.
It's pretty weird working for http://www.myspace.com/. It's like I'm that guy who was one of the first to get a Macintosh and now I work for Apple. I never would have though that myspace would get as big as it is today. It's weird. Myspace is a great job it's a great company. Not complaining at all, I enjoy coming to work everyday, even though I have to fight through Los Angeles traffic to get here and I'm running on very little sleep.
I don't understand the traffic here. I was driving down the 110 a couple weeks ago and I merge onto the 101 and there's bumper to bumper traffic. Well that's not a big deal that's normal, but it was fucking 12:30 am it was just after midnight. It never ends, I bet some of those people got off of work at 5 and were in traffic since then. It's unbelievable.
I haven't gotten a full nights sleep in a minute, for about a month now. My body is adjusting as much as it can. School during the day and work during the night probably has my body confused it doesn't know when it wants to shut down.
Back to work.
School is going well. I figured out that not being in school for two years after 13 years of consecutive scholastic exploring really does something to the information you obtained in those 13 years. I forgot just about every-fucking-thing I learned. I feel like a retard in class. I can't believe how slow I am. I'm not conventionally wise. I'm not wise at all, I know a plethera of information about certain topics, like being black. Math and English not so much. I know nothing. I can't even put a coherrent sentence together (as you must notice as you're reading this.) My spelling and grammar is deplorable, but I'm back in school, somewhere I really need to be. I need to get more educated on this system. I have to know how to play the game, so (with your help) we can change the rules and level the playing field.
I hope work doesn't get in the way of my school work. I'm so tired when I get home from work at 5:00 am just to wake up and get to class by 9:35 am on Tuesdays and Thursdays and 11:10 am on Mondays and Wednesdays. I'm not complaining. I love my life right now, everything is going as planned and I finally feel like I'm on my way to accomplishing something in life. I don't know what yet but it's going to be something positive and beneficial to mankind. Something beneficial to my people. Hopefully I can be the alarm clock that awakes my people from their sleeps and be that spark that ignites a better way of life for us here in this hemisphere. We have to want to change before we can change and I'm not quite sure we want to do that. We seem content with the state of affairs in our community and globally.
I'm at work right now and my job is pretty laid back. I just get to listen to my music and work all day. That makes my day I have to listen to music when I'm doing something most people would perceive as work, like cleaning. It makes the task go by quicker and it infuses my soul with the energy I need to complete my work. "Gimme some of that good ol' soul music or don't give me nothing at all," as the great Dramatics told us.
It's pretty weird working for http://www.myspace.com/. It's like I'm that guy who was one of the first to get a Macintosh and now I work for Apple. I never would have though that myspace would get as big as it is today. It's weird. Myspace is a great job it's a great company. Not complaining at all, I enjoy coming to work everyday, even though I have to fight through Los Angeles traffic to get here and I'm running on very little sleep.
I don't understand the traffic here. I was driving down the 110 a couple weeks ago and I merge onto the 101 and there's bumper to bumper traffic. Well that's not a big deal that's normal, but it was fucking 12:30 am it was just after midnight. It never ends, I bet some of those people got off of work at 5 and were in traffic since then. It's unbelievable.
I haven't gotten a full nights sleep in a minute, for about a month now. My body is adjusting as much as it can. School during the day and work during the night probably has my body confused it doesn't know when it wants to shut down.
Back to work.
Stay up doggy, you are a MONSTER right now! A grown man!
ReplyDeleteTransformation! It's good to see are doing well. I wish I could have made it to LA. I definitely have a deeper appreciation for Cali from being in the Bay for so long, but I still need to see what Southern California is like.
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