be me, be you

I don't really know what to post anymore. I read blogs and everything is so contrived it's kind of discouraging. I'm a mother fucker who survives off raw emotion while everyone else is worried about making some money, worried about what some pretentious fucker is going to think about them and what they say.

I deplore walking on a planet where mother fuckers care so much about what a mother fucker thinks about them that they change their actions, they re-evaluate and re-think their speech. Be you! It's so rare these days. Everyone seems to be writing, dressing, performing, thinking, for someone else instead of themselves. These actions seem to become them. What everyone else thinks of them becomes them. They're saying what everyone wants them to say. They're believing what everyone wants them to believe and it somehow becomes them. That's who they are. Well be that.......I guess.

I walked downstairs to the laundry room in my apartment building earlier today and this woman was using every washer. I just so happen to walk down when the cycle on one washer was commencing. She said "it's going to be at least two hours until I'm done." Because she was washing about every fucking garment in her life. But she said this in Spanish. She sensed my urgency and said I can use this washer (in Spanish). My Espanol is deplorable. But I understood everything she was saying. She even asked if some blankets in a dryer not being used by either of us was mine. I said "No." My point is that she spoke her native language regardless of what language I spoke (or maybe it's the fact that I look like a Puerto Rican or a Dominican and that relegated her to the use of Spanish). Or maybe it's because I live in little Mexico but either way she spoke her language. She did what was comfortable to her.

I love that shit!! Be you!!! I respect that so much and I hope that people respect that about me. No matter what I say or do, it's me being me and not me trying to be someone else. It isn't me trying to shit on you or insult anything about you. I say some bull shit. I think and unthink unlike most people (just like hella people) and I hope people respect that and if not. It's your loss for being as closed minded as the fuckers trying to deny a Mosque being opened near ground zero in New York City.

Be you, that's all I ask and I'll be me too.