Digression

As I have developed and continue to advance
Past thoughts and beliefs have faded
Chance knows me well and so does effect
Raided by doom and grief and the happy

Reality has beat me down
I let the world thwart my hope
Shrinking in moral standard
In a world not meant to be saved

When I was younger I knew the world would change
I recognized how poverty and greed and miseducation and injustice were strange
How they didn't have to exist and how they could not
Naive I was because the poor and the rich and stupidity and abuse can not stop

Meaning well and doing good
Is demeaning and needless
I must lust for sins and evil and the selfish and illness
I am a worst person than I was yesterday and descending

No excuses will I make for what I have chose
What has happened will always be mine
In a cold world my heart froze
As I continue to digress over time

Aging towards a hearse destined for Hell's cemetery
The nuisance I've become to the world my route
While I'm here I grieve those good thoughts
And embrace a decline that scares me