What Is Sin?, Repression, and Resolution 32

What Is Sin?
I've struggled with this
Defining my urges with "morals"
What I want and what I feel
A suck, a fuck, a kiss
Chaos, agony and quarrels
Smiles and frowns are what's real

Why deny my bestial compulsions?
To appease some foreign parent?
Selfishness and jealousy feed my devoutness
An unbridled devotion
Controlled by control; what seems apparent
Controlled by a control's proudness

Sin, is my desire
To feel as if I've never felt
No shackles to hold me
If my destiny is eternal fire
Let that warmth, those blisters and welts
Punish all I want to feel and be

Repression
No more will I suppress me
No constraints or bars, no imprisonment
Undoubtedly, I will be free
Enslaved no more, no convictions to bound
To constrain and oppress
My heart and mind determine me
How I feel and act won't be appraised
My "flaws" and misfortunes and "wrong-doings"
And heartlessness and unforgiving nature
Won't be judged or deemed inequities
I am pure and perfect
I won't repress my nature
Weakness is those who do
Who succumb to notions of the imperfect
Repression, something that's forced
Also, something I won't acknowledge
What I want, what I need, how I feel
Is not barred
I'm free, unrestrained, incalculable
Wild and liberated
Sovereign and content

Guided by my own regulation
Repressed by my own delegation

Resolution 32
I'm going to change this year
Who I am and what I was
Change will be evident in what I produce
It's the first of the year
I must change; things must be different
I'm getting older as the years renew
I can't eat what I did
I won't do what I once did
Change must come now
When my optimism is at its peak
I must lose weight and make more money
And focus on  my career and work harder
And be more charitable and be more optimistic
I must change and change and change
Something I could have changed
Months and years ago
This is my resolution
To lose more wait