Prose
My Voice, a more direct perspective, is going to become more prominent on my site. I am not going to discontinue my propensity for poetic definition, but I feel that poetry is discriminately interpretative. Each word, quatrain, sentence, verse, couplet, syllable.... can mean something or nothing. If everyone spoke using traditional poetic devices you would not be able to understand a fucking word anyone says, although I would contend that language is poetry. But the structure that allows for general understanding would become a purgatory of chaos in language and understanding that would have no other choice but to disavowal definition. Something that I believe is necessary in order to understand.
I Hate explaining myself especially when it comes to my poetry and most often refuse to do so, but I do want to clarify my position on a probable misinterpretation you could gather in your reading of my interpretation of the universe. I am not a Satanist, despite being an activist for pleasure. God and Satan are conceptions that I think are infinitely inspirational. Someone or something that embodies goodwill and happiness and other emotions of elation (God) and something or someone that is evil and malevolent and embodies everything "bad (Satan)" are great boundaries for interpretation. If I were to define my system of belief I believe that I am kinda agnostic. I really don't know and don't give a fuck if there is a God or Devil, Heaven or Hell, Good or Evil, Love or Hate... I feel that existence has been misconstrued to these simplified definitions. Especially considering that nothing and everything that I have experienced can be attributed definitively to these overly simplified ideals of existence. Being a minority mixed with African, Mexican, and Native American blood, it is hard for me to reconcile Missions and Genocide and Rape and Molestation and Slavery with an "All Good" God's supreme mercy, forgiveness, and benevolence. If a Christian god exists then that mother fucker is as evil as he is good (especially if you concede that God created the universe, yes evil too). I can't speak on Islam, Hinduism, Buddhism or any other faiths or ways of life because I did not grow up under the conditions of that particular way of defining existence. What I can say is that the preponderance of numerous interpretations on how existence sprouted is evidence enough for me that we don't know shit! I am not espousing any new ideas I'm just trying to clarify my position. I refuse to acknowledge that centuries of endless subjugation culminate into an understanding of necessary suffering. This acceptance allows for certain religious sects to consider their principles definite and use those axioms to exploit and therefore force the realization that life is suborned in support of a vain higher being. A being who relies upon your invocation for sustenance.
I Am not writing to project or explain certain emotions. I just want people to know my voice and attempt to understand my perspective. It is wholly my perspective and my interpretation of the universe is reliant upon that. Obviously.
No matter how supercilious and listless.
We're never going to be the same and we should be glad. I do believe that what connects humanity is emotion and its expression. Happiness, sadness, anger, disappointment, hate and especially love can be generally understood, that's why certain art is popularly accepted. My problem with certain film, music, and television is that it is depthless. It only caverns as deep as the surface and disallows any attempt to dig deeper. We are not the same and can't love the same. We must continue to learn then forget what we're are being taught. What is being forced upon us. We are being indoctrinated by a feigning tautology of emotional subscript in entertainment that is tainting our ability to form substantive relationships. Subjectivity does not equate to truth no matter how many accept it or no matter how seemingly definitive. Expectation is death.
Once More, I am not trying to espouse any new ideas or include my name in the pantheon of philosophical societal deviance. I just want to clarify my perspective. I am a negative person. I cannot see the universe through the lenses of positivity. I cannot take solace in the deceitful and irrational facade of faith and hope. I just see what I see and I interpret it, subjectively.
- Chief
