Ignorant

It always comes to this moment

This moment of loneliness 

A feeling in which I seem to indulge

This instance I own it

This self-deprecating phoniness

That tends to always result 

In her walking away from me

No one wants to be alone

I don't have an overt penchant 

To be by myself fondly

I am no emotionless drone

I know her heart wants penance

Its fervor relies upon my love

In my hands is her heart

And her faith and hope

The hope that I won't abuse her fragility

Which undoubtedly I knew I would do

I could not bear the facade

The pattern of love and what it is supposed to mean

What it is supposed to do to your spirit

Befalls me 

And in my grand ignorance 

I conclude that hearts are too fragile

I am too hard

Her mistake was trusting me with something

Entirely too sensitive for my being

So I understand why she walked away

And why she will keep walking

And when she disappears into the distant horizon

I will keep staring until she comes back

Knowing she never will

I wouldn't recognize her anyway