Dead I am: I'm Joining the Club

I wrote this poem in memory of the life I had lived up to age 27. I'm going to be a father and my life is officially over. I'm living for someone else now. I am excited but terrified of this new chapter in my life. I'm not ready. But I do know that I'm going to take care of my child and love my child with my entire being. Get here healthy my love. I'll be waiting to do all that you need happily and selflessly. I am dead now. My life is yours.

Dead I Am: I'm Joining the Club

I'm joining the club
My life is over
Dead I am
Breath still in my lungs
Breathing constantly and indomitably
But dead
Like Janis Joplin
Like Kurt Cobain
Like Jimi and his riffs
I am dead
I didn't think I'd live this long
I just knew I'd be dead by at least 25
Like Tupac Shakur
When that year passed alive
I thought I'd die at 26
Just like Otis Redding
But here I am, dead at 27
Club 27 I join
Amy Winehouse is here
So is Jim Morrison and Basquiat
Dead I am
Misunderstanding is wherever I've been
Unknowingly drifting into a life forged anew
To breed life
And all of its fallacy
Wishing that I created a standard
Envious of the envy the others in the club created
My life is over
Alive I hoped to be for longer
But dead I am
The life that will be lived
Is growing
She won't falter
She will be me alive
I'm joining the club
The world will appreciate my art
The universe will understand
That my rebirth
My heart
Is my daughter smart