Scared to Feel Because I Hate it, Toothbrush, and I'm Valuable

Scared to Feel Because I Hate It 

I do not like this
Feeling this way, I fear it
I hate that way, too
I'll hide behind this mask
I won't feel... I won't!

Toothbrush

  RING! RING! RING! RING! RING!
  RING! RING! RING! RING! RING! RING! RING!
  Okay, I am up
  I work today, don't I? FUCK!
  I have to hurry
6  My toothbrush was pink, I thought
  I forgot, it's blue
  Why is it blue? Pink it was
  She would always know
  Now I understand, She's gone
  And took my toothbrush

I'm Valuable 

  "You're fucking worthless
  No benefit to my life you are
  What have you ever done for me?
  NOTHING!
  You aren't shit Jonathan!
6  What the fuck have you done for me!"
  Nothing
  "Just like you!"

(Boyle Heights, Los Angeles, CA)