Not You Too and Humanity Ingenue

Not You Too

Insecurity is a plague that eats at me
All I do and write was born in Hell's dregs
That is my claim alone and aura of my environment
And I refuse to chastise those who are paralyzed
At Hell's legs

What I do and say and write can be a disease
And all I've made
Is how my heart, mind, and thoughts went
And also how the hearts, minds, and time influenced were sterilized
I am not afraid

Maybe I write because I like being lonely
And uncherished is how I was meant to age
But to tell me that all of the time I spent
Trying to keep myself from wanting to die
Were years, months, weeks, hours, minutes, seconds, a-waste

Is something I cannot fathom, adumbrate or see
Blinded by your false love and support I was, lost in your maze
I believed that you believed, you don't and you didn't
That would have never been a surprise
If I weren't in love's lustful daze

I understand your needs
Security is what you crave
Without hard work's boundless and unrelenting sentence
I will work hard for as long as I am alive
Until my dying day coming soon, I will never believe
That you believed in me
Because you didn't
You didn't, you couldn't

Humanity Ingenue

A seed implanted in a woman
Artless and combative
Without a similar woman
I wouldn't be here
Astral and dull