Abaddon and Control Locus

Abaddon

How did I get here?

This place I have always feared

Lost all along trying to find 

A place kind 

I've been looking for an exit 

And goddamn it I can't find it

There must be a world, a universe nicer

A realm not overwhelmed by fire

Or the detestation of me

And all that I believe 

A fascinating sphere that isn't so hot

Here, I refuse to rot 

This land isn't for me, no one here is warm

I hate that this terrible place is where I was born

Control Locus

I am in control of my life
No matter the weather
The bodies that surround me
And their free will
Don't make me worse or better
There is nothing, no entity that can incite
Or make me move needlessly
My actions, like my reaction still
When the sun is up, I sleep
The moon gives me energy
To succumb to what surrounds
Outside or inside
My thoughts perceive
That every leap
Astounds
And inside me resides
A focus that can only see
That all of my control resides in me