An Existentialist's Rationale

There is no synonym or other known understanding
Because free will is too demanding
The weather, traffic, nor the free will of other beings
Does not and will not cause my responsibility to go fleeing
The will I exhibited before those causes came
I still stand firmly with my choice's shame
Nothingness isn't absurd
And the ethics my will defines subjectively disturbed
Guides the angst in all of my choices
I am free to not listen to the voices
Here I am still, breathing healthy breaths
Never rationalizing what becomes of my will
For all of my steps are guided
By how I tell myself to feel