I Understand What I Type and Say; I Comprehend and Understand Your Reaction
Excuse this post but it is less self-realization and more self-actualization. I only write when I am compelled to write and that is the protocol for my notebooks, iPhone Notes, Word documents, this blog, and for all of my social media accounts. Let me admit, often I have had a drink or too many when I post online but I have come to realize that more truth than fiction, more of my heart than braggadocios vanity is displayed and minimal regret comes from my posts. I never learn more about myself, I learn more about the people around me. Maybe, it's pure assumption or intuition, maybe I am dead right. But a lot of people I know, will know, and have known do not like reading or hearing what I have to say (again I assume feeling). Maybe, they love it and have these life affirming experiences after reading my truth. This post also is assuming that more people than myself read what I write.
I am a thoughtful person. I think a lot and intelligently will convince myself to write or to not write something. You can read what I write and only imagine because I tell you to imagine what I had written before it. I have a filter, I guess, but I do not indulge that filter. Political correctness or some sort of empathy for the supposed plights of minority groups or assumed oppressed people, I will not say I do not care about, but I will say that I am weary of how genuine they are. I cannot help but deny the fact that certain groups in their entirety, in their narrowly defined ideal, are oppressed because of how they self identify. This is why these liberal, jump from candidate to candidate, movement to movement clowns fail. They do not ever, ever change a single person's mind to agree with how they feel about the world because their belief is inherently rooted, it is grounded, in selfishness. They have a belief focused solely on identity and they do not frame what makes an identity righteous or corrupt. I understand that selfishness. You think that there should be a road with minimal adherences leading towards prosperity a paved road as promised by United States propaganda. You notice systems that are harmful, you notice prejudice, you notice systems that should be destroyed and remade because a role will never be developed for you or if you fit a role, the creators will not feel comfortable working with you if you do not acquiesce to their perception of who you're supposed to be.
I feel that we're living in a culture of weak people. Especially, us supposed, people of color, minorities or whatever adjective they want to use. I apologize to those revolutionaries who completely deny the scourge of white influence, but it seems that most activists fighting for the rights of their group are always encouraged to care about the rights of other groups. Instead of freedom fighters or revolutionaries or whatever coming together for a common goal we always have supposed oppressed groups of people of color trying to build a coalition of other supposed "minority" groups who are only minorities when convenient, groups who are used to distract from the oppression of another group, the group your ancestors ignored and hated when they decided to migrate to the United States of America. The comfort your ancestors sought, the plight that drove your ancestors from their home country, the coup, the extreme poverty that drove your ancestors, your parents to flee where they were born was influenced by a country built upon the subjugation of people arguably worst off than your ancestors and your ancestors ignored that fact. The ancestors of many migrant groups ignored that the United States may soon turn upon them because they didn't like the people the United States used to fabricate the number one economy in the world. They ignored that the oppression that they were experiencing in their home country could not possibly be experienced by people born in the land of the "free."
I am not anti-migration. I personally do not believe in borders and believe that they are constructs of survival mechanisms necessary to ensure that those who created the borders and their families can persist comfortably. I write that to also say that supposedly, so many intelligent and thoughtful people come from other nations as migrants begging to contribute to this great land of opportunity and achieve this static dream of comfort. They do not realize that generations of people born on the land that they seek as refuge will never have that comfort. I say whatever I want to say because I am thoughtful, because I am knowledgable and because I am very capable of comprehending your reaction to what I've read and what I've studied and to how I comprehend the world around me. The people who flee to this land for comfort, I understand may not have a chance to be that thoughtful, but the inquisitive me wants to ask, what if the place you're fleeing to is worse? I hate to be this blunt (but not really) migrants most often than not are cowards. They refuse to fight for the land that they were born upon because they believe that their oppressor is too mighty or maybe the grass is always greener on the other side of the world and that this shitty land of the USA gives them an out. It tells them, you don't have to fight for freedom or liberty or whatever in your home country, you can flee, you can run and be oppressed by a less obvious oppressor in the United States of America; a land built upon oppression.
I am not ignorant of what migrants have built in these United States. I am not bereft of the influence and difficult, life saving decisions that people had to make. I understand that survival is humanity's greatest instinct. What I refuse to understand is how these motherfuckers can come over to this nation and shit and spit and be prejudice against a group of people who allowed for your fucking haven to prosper. I don't care about the scourge of the media and how toxic they are to our everyday lives and our mental stability and how they influence an image around the globe that not only the oppressed but the affluent attach themselves to. I don't care what degree of poverty you came from because in your bout to forget or erase or use your oppression as a tool for motivation you are contributing to the continued subjugation of the people who made sure this country was desirable to you. Your parents, your ancestors, denied the genocide and the slavery and the crimes against humanity to pursue a better life. And you deny the genocide, the slavery, and the crimes against humanity's perpetuation until you need those who have survived it all to help you in your movement for acceptance.
Migrants come here and they want to identify with being white. You don't want to be you, you're only a representative of your culture. If it doesn't offend or keep you from the white dream your ancestors swam across the Pacific or the Atlantic for you ignore it, you may even shun it. You and your people model yourselves after the greatest mode of survival and that's acting white. You remember your culture on holidays, you still cook your traditional foods and dishes because this country does have markets and shops and businesses started by generations of people from your homeland who think and thought just like you do because they literally have a taste for home, without ever wanting to live there again. Also, a lot of these motherfuckers probably don't realize that they take on the mindset of a lot of white people and have a prejudice and disdain for the people who again, built your fucking haven. And as long as those people are killed and jailed and denied access to upward mobility, you and your family and your ancestors are okay with it because it has yet to spill into your progress.
I know a lot of my "friends" and acquaintances are bothered, maybe they get angry at the things that I write because it offends their cornball "I identify as a liberal" sensibilities, their "I am on the side of right" doctrine. At a later date I will try to quantify why liberals are so "intelligent" but do not understand that they don't work for the government, the government works for them. I will try to help them understand that even all of their life affirming, identity-centric ideas have racism and white supremacy molded into them, these clowns don't want to take any accountability for the flaws or maybe the problematic narratives that they're promoting. I apologize for using these nondescript, narrowly defined words but I tend to write for my audience (me).
Simply, I just mean to say that even migration is corrupt. This supposed haven and your disbelief that a lot of fucking people are prejudice and racist. The disbelief that your stereotype is your role, that you are even stereotyped, is rooted in an ignorance, a refusal to study, a refusal to read the goddamn travel brochure.
The only "migrants" in this country I have any sympathy for are the native Mexicans. Not the German, Spanish, Belgian, or other conquerors who now come to the United States and claim minority status, who are only minorities when beneficial. If we are to believe in borders nearly one third of the United States belongs to Mexico and its natives.
For some reason what I think or type or say is deemed as a weakness in this society. You're deemed reckless or undisciplined because you say what you feel and think without any regard for feelings or other very difficult to gauge human or society wrought sensitivities.
I do not write anything to offend. I just write what I feel without any regard to how the possible reader will perceive what I write or how they will perceive me. Understand that I do not label myself. I only understand that I am a black man and that all these fucking non-black clowns complaining about having it hard think that they're living in another dimension. The extreme discrimination experienced by descendants from Africa is ignored not like we're ghosts but like we can't be seen. It's like we live in a quantum-discrimination purgatory. And you as a migrant are in shock that discrimination can happen to you too.
I understand what I write, I whole heartedly know and understand what I say. Can you comprehend it? Do you know or understand what you believe? Am I being malicious or ignorant, uniformed? Or am I exposing your heart?
I am a thoughtful person. I think a lot and intelligently will convince myself to write or to not write something. You can read what I write and only imagine because I tell you to imagine what I had written before it. I have a filter, I guess, but I do not indulge that filter. Political correctness or some sort of empathy for the supposed plights of minority groups or assumed oppressed people, I will not say I do not care about, but I will say that I am weary of how genuine they are. I cannot help but deny the fact that certain groups in their entirety, in their narrowly defined ideal, are oppressed because of how they self identify. This is why these liberal, jump from candidate to candidate, movement to movement clowns fail. They do not ever, ever change a single person's mind to agree with how they feel about the world because their belief is inherently rooted, it is grounded, in selfishness. They have a belief focused solely on identity and they do not frame what makes an identity righteous or corrupt. I understand that selfishness. You think that there should be a road with minimal adherences leading towards prosperity a paved road as promised by United States propaganda. You notice systems that are harmful, you notice prejudice, you notice systems that should be destroyed and remade because a role will never be developed for you or if you fit a role, the creators will not feel comfortable working with you if you do not acquiesce to their perception of who you're supposed to be.
I feel that we're living in a culture of weak people. Especially, us supposed, people of color, minorities or whatever adjective they want to use. I apologize to those revolutionaries who completely deny the scourge of white influence, but it seems that most activists fighting for the rights of their group are always encouraged to care about the rights of other groups. Instead of freedom fighters or revolutionaries or whatever coming together for a common goal we always have supposed oppressed groups of people of color trying to build a coalition of other supposed "minority" groups who are only minorities when convenient, groups who are used to distract from the oppression of another group, the group your ancestors ignored and hated when they decided to migrate to the United States of America. The comfort your ancestors sought, the plight that drove your ancestors from their home country, the coup, the extreme poverty that drove your ancestors, your parents to flee where they were born was influenced by a country built upon the subjugation of people arguably worst off than your ancestors and your ancestors ignored that fact. The ancestors of many migrant groups ignored that the United States may soon turn upon them because they didn't like the people the United States used to fabricate the number one economy in the world. They ignored that the oppression that they were experiencing in their home country could not possibly be experienced by people born in the land of the "free."
I am not anti-migration. I personally do not believe in borders and believe that they are constructs of survival mechanisms necessary to ensure that those who created the borders and their families can persist comfortably. I write that to also say that supposedly, so many intelligent and thoughtful people come from other nations as migrants begging to contribute to this great land of opportunity and achieve this static dream of comfort. They do not realize that generations of people born on the land that they seek as refuge will never have that comfort. I say whatever I want to say because I am thoughtful, because I am knowledgable and because I am very capable of comprehending your reaction to what I've read and what I've studied and to how I comprehend the world around me. The people who flee to this land for comfort, I understand may not have a chance to be that thoughtful, but the inquisitive me wants to ask, what if the place you're fleeing to is worse? I hate to be this blunt (but not really) migrants most often than not are cowards. They refuse to fight for the land that they were born upon because they believe that their oppressor is too mighty or maybe the grass is always greener on the other side of the world and that this shitty land of the USA gives them an out. It tells them, you don't have to fight for freedom or liberty or whatever in your home country, you can flee, you can run and be oppressed by a less obvious oppressor in the United States of America; a land built upon oppression.
I am not ignorant of what migrants have built in these United States. I am not bereft of the influence and difficult, life saving decisions that people had to make. I understand that survival is humanity's greatest instinct. What I refuse to understand is how these motherfuckers can come over to this nation and shit and spit and be prejudice against a group of people who allowed for your fucking haven to prosper. I don't care about the scourge of the media and how toxic they are to our everyday lives and our mental stability and how they influence an image around the globe that not only the oppressed but the affluent attach themselves to. I don't care what degree of poverty you came from because in your bout to forget or erase or use your oppression as a tool for motivation you are contributing to the continued subjugation of the people who made sure this country was desirable to you. Your parents, your ancestors, denied the genocide and the slavery and the crimes against humanity to pursue a better life. And you deny the genocide, the slavery, and the crimes against humanity's perpetuation until you need those who have survived it all to help you in your movement for acceptance.
Migrants come here and they want to identify with being white. You don't want to be you, you're only a representative of your culture. If it doesn't offend or keep you from the white dream your ancestors swam across the Pacific or the Atlantic for you ignore it, you may even shun it. You and your people model yourselves after the greatest mode of survival and that's acting white. You remember your culture on holidays, you still cook your traditional foods and dishes because this country does have markets and shops and businesses started by generations of people from your homeland who think and thought just like you do because they literally have a taste for home, without ever wanting to live there again. Also, a lot of these motherfuckers probably don't realize that they take on the mindset of a lot of white people and have a prejudice and disdain for the people who again, built your fucking haven. And as long as those people are killed and jailed and denied access to upward mobility, you and your family and your ancestors are okay with it because it has yet to spill into your progress.
I know a lot of my "friends" and acquaintances are bothered, maybe they get angry at the things that I write because it offends their cornball "I identify as a liberal" sensibilities, their "I am on the side of right" doctrine. At a later date I will try to quantify why liberals are so "intelligent" but do not understand that they don't work for the government, the government works for them. I will try to help them understand that even all of their life affirming, identity-centric ideas have racism and white supremacy molded into them, these clowns don't want to take any accountability for the flaws or maybe the problematic narratives that they're promoting. I apologize for using these nondescript, narrowly defined words but I tend to write for my audience (me).
Simply, I just mean to say that even migration is corrupt. This supposed haven and your disbelief that a lot of fucking people are prejudice and racist. The disbelief that your stereotype is your role, that you are even stereotyped, is rooted in an ignorance, a refusal to study, a refusal to read the goddamn travel brochure.
The only "migrants" in this country I have any sympathy for are the native Mexicans. Not the German, Spanish, Belgian, or other conquerors who now come to the United States and claim minority status, who are only minorities when beneficial. If we are to believe in borders nearly one third of the United States belongs to Mexico and its natives.
For some reason what I think or type or say is deemed as a weakness in this society. You're deemed reckless or undisciplined because you say what you feel and think without any regard for feelings or other very difficult to gauge human or society wrought sensitivities.
I do not write anything to offend. I just write what I feel without any regard to how the possible reader will perceive what I write or how they will perceive me. Understand that I do not label myself. I only understand that I am a black man and that all these fucking non-black clowns complaining about having it hard think that they're living in another dimension. The extreme discrimination experienced by descendants from Africa is ignored not like we're ghosts but like we can't be seen. It's like we live in a quantum-discrimination purgatory. And you as a migrant are in shock that discrimination can happen to you too.
I understand what I write, I whole heartedly know and understand what I say. Can you comprehend it? Do you know or understand what you believe? Am I being malicious or ignorant, uniformed? Or am I exposing your heart?
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