PHOTOGRAPHS: Read and Write Bad Thoughts

Read and Write Bad Thoughts. 

Oil, Spray Paint, and Three ripped books of poetry glued onto canvas. 48x36. 

    My latest artwork is devoted to my published books of poetry Someone Sinister (2013), Universe Unraveling (2016), and The Night I Died and Other Poems (2018). I had ripped up pages of my three poetry books lying around because I was using the pages to update the Bad Thoughts Publishing Company Instagram page. I am working diligently on my first novel and I wanted to commemorate what influenced me to start my publishing company and that is my poetry. 

    A lot of the poems I pasted on the canvas I had not read in quite some time. The oldest of these poems was from 2009 when I was a brooding 23 years old. I hate to vaunt or boast but some of my older poems are fantastic, I really enjoyed reading a lot of them, especially Heavenly Decay Parts I and II. Someday I will publish a Part III, I am certain of that now,  buy I felt a lot of the poems were truly delightful it almost felt like I hadn't written them. Whilst, reading bits and pieces of both I realized how much I absolutely enjoyed writing them. But what is typical of me what is my nature, I must also loathe, lament, and criticize some of my older works. I read some of my earlier poems most from my first work Someone Sinister a few from the others, Someone Sinister was the main culprit, and some of those poems were like reading the sadistic whiny notebook of a masochistic depressed school shooter with enmity for self and society, that is handwritten in the blood he gathers from his cutting. I know I wrote them well I'm pretty sure I did, but a lot of them are embarrassing to read. 

    It's natural for me to seek balance, I guess. I have to balance the bad poems with the good. That is just my own opinion based upon where I am right now in my life. My work is immensely personal and of course, I'm going to judge it harshly. 

    I still write a lot of poetry but my next work to be released will of course be my first novel, The Dorner Protocol. I have been working on this novel for a little over a year now, which by the way has been the most arduous but most worthwhile writing journeys I have ever been on. All the reading other works, all the research, getting through the initial story, and the edits. 

    Writing this novel and creating my latest art piece has evoked a very revelatory reflection on my poetry and what it has meant to me. I have an intrinsic poetic inclination, I am programmed to write poems but this piece is sort of an offering to God just in case I don't look to procure poetic enchantment for awhile. 

PHASE ONE

PHASE TWO